Our last post was a hopeful anticipation of
approaching our travel date to Ukraine, a giant step forward. This past week however, we took several steps
back. A very slight imperfection in a
handwritten date on one of the documents caused the SDA to question the entire
dossier. While they tried to figure this
out, our home-study and our medical clearances expired. This means that these have to be redone. It was sort of like finishing a race, only to
be told to run it again because it didn’t count. Our initial reaction was anger and
frustration at the system and the process, but as a couple of days went by I
(Kimberly) realized that my anger was directed towards God. I mean doesn’t He care that we have been
going through this process for a year now, doesn’t He see that we are trying to
fulfill a promise to care for the orphans, doesn’t He know how much our family
wants to be united, what is the major malfunction?? I had taken a step towards the deep end of
bitterness and resentment towards my Heavenly Father, I had forgotten that God
is Love. I had forgotten, Romans 5:8 but God
shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Galatians 2:20 I
have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who
lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of
God, who loved me and gave himself for me. And most importantly I had forgotten, Romans
8:37-39 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors
through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels
nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor
depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the
love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
I needed a reminder of why we
were adopting. Were we adopting to
rescue an orphan? That’s God’s job to be
the rescuer. Were we adopting because we
wanted people to think what wonderful people we are? The only good we do is what God has purposed
for us. The entire process from beginning
to whatever the outcome, is completely under the careful, attentive, and loving
hand of our Great God.
We are redoing the needed
paperwork and being ever aware that we haven’t been abandoned, nor has
Vitaliy. There is always a purpose for
everything that happens when you are a child of God. We may not be privy to the reasons and our
understanding may be limited but we need not fear or fret because we know who
our God is.
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